Frustration................

This is exactly how I feel right now. Frustrated and a little overwhelmed. I have so much going on in my life right now and sometimes I have to ask the all to famous question....."Why Me"?! Its not like having your husband gone for approximately 2 1/2 - 3 years out of your 7 and 1/2 year marriage isn't enough. You also have to throw in the sudden loss of a father, 2 miscarriages, 1 still born, and 1 baby that has cancer....... I have endured a lot these past couple of years and sometimes I do catch myself crying and feeling sorry for myself. Thats where I get the question "why Me"?

Then I go to the cancer clinic where my baby is treated... And I see all the the kids that walk in and out of that clinic and im sure they have asked themselves that famous question too. But they still manage to have smiles on their darling faces and the most contagious laughs! I wish I could be more like them at times. Just forget about EVERYTHING and LIVE for NOW! I want to be more like them. I have so much NOW to LIVE for.... I have a husband who makes me laugh. I have 2 healthy little boys... I have one STRONG baby... I have an amazing Mother! I really do have alot to be thankful and happy for right NOW!!

I just have to remind myself from time to time........................................